Moments of Clarity, Moments of Insanity
Disclaimer: Switched At Birth is owned by Lizzy Weiss and ABC Family. No
copyright infringement is meant. I am using the characters for entertainment
purposes only.
Disclaimer: There will be "M" rated themes in later chapters......
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Chapter 3- episode 5
Ty and I went to his house after the party. We made out for a while.
Eventually, clothes started coming off. I want this. I want to forget
everything. I want to forget the party and Daphne and all those idiot people at
the party. I want someone to want me.
"Do you have anything?" I ask Ty. His shirt is off and damn, but his chest
looks like a washboard. He is too sexy. My mouth waters looking at him.
He hesitates for a second. "Um, no. Do you?" he asks hopefully.
Sarcastically, I reply, "What, like secretly hidden in my cleavage or taped
to the bottom of my shoe? No!"
Then it really hit me. Ty is 19 and he has nothing? Is that even normal? Is
he still a virgin?
"Wait, how can you not have anything?"
"I don't know. I really didn't expect this to happen tonight." He answers
honestly.
Is he serious? I thought every guy carried a condom around in their wallet.
Isn't it like a "guy code" or something? I wondered fleetingly if Emmett carried
one. He probably was a virgin. The thought probably never even crossed his mind.
Or if it did, he without a doubt thought of Daphne or some other deaf girl.
Certainly not me.
Realizing nothing is happening between us tonight, I try to relieve the
pressure. "Okay, well, uh, next time we'll be more prepared."
Ty sighs but agrees with me.
Ty brings me home and kisses me goodbye. Out of the corner of my eye, I see
my father staring in the window of the truck.
"Dad!" Oh my god, I am so dead!
Of course, my parents flipped out. So, we came home at 3 am and they thought
I was at Simone's. Big deal. Mom and Dad kept talking over each other. Finally,
they tell me I can leave so they can decide my punishment. Little did I know
what was in store.
The next morning, Mom drops the bombshell. I'm not grounded. Ty has to come
to dinner. If he doesn't , we can't see each other anymore. World War III
here we come.
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The morning after the party, I wake up on my stomach and it rather painful. I
try to remember what I was dreaming about that put me like this. Oh, yes. I
remember now. I was dreaming about Bay. She was under me and we had our hands
all over each other. Her bra was off and…..better stop those thoughts right
there. I really need to stop these fantasies. It's getting painful. And not in
the good way.
Awhile later, I find myself at the Kennish family home. I want to apologize
to Daphne, but secretly, I hope to see Bay. Dreams and fantasies are one thing.
The real deal is a dream come true. I walk into Toby's garage after spotting him
and Daphne inside.
"Hey, man! Awesome job last night," Toby says, but signs 'awesome' like I
taught him last night. Bumping fists, I tell him, "You too."
I apologize to Daphne, explaining I was in a bad mood last night. She said it
was forgotten and then asked me if I wanted to play poker with her and Toby.
Hoping to see Bay if I hung around long enough, I agreed. Little did I know what
I was in for.
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After the dinner party from hell, I want to scream. First, Daphne and Toby
are no-shows. Then, Regina and Adriana bail. My parents were giving Ty the
Spanish Inquisition and then complained about his answers. To top it off, I
found out Ty is going into the Army on Thursday. 3 days! He's leaving in 3 days
and I'm just now hearing about it.
After dinner, we talk and he tells me he was planning on telling me. I don't
want to hear anything he has to say and tell him to leave. Texting me later that
night, he asks me to come over. He wants to see me.
After a talk with Regina that actually made me feel better, I decide to make
him a going away gift. I paint "Axe Girl" with an army cap on to surprise him.
The next morning I take it to his house. He tries to tell me he loves me, but I
stop him because it is too painful. We kiss and he tells me he has a condom now
if I wanted to do something. I tell him I just came to say goodbye.
When I get home, I am surprised to see Emmett in the driveway. He smiles and
waves when he sees me. I wave back, but can't return his smile. My heart is
breaking in two. He notices this and walks over to me.
"Are you okay?" he mouths. Concern is clearly written on his face. He puts
his hand on my shoulder. It is the first time we have ever touched. It feels
like electricity goes through me. Can he feel it too? I wonder what he would do
if I threw my arms around him and cried. Probably push me away.
I look at him and speak slowly so he catches everything I am saying. "No, not
really. I just found out Ty is leaving for the Army in 3 days."
"He didn't tell you before now?" he mouths again.
"No. I just found out yesterday."
He signs something I don't understand. "I don't know what you said. I'm
sorry."
He laughs a little. "I said "I'm sorry," he mouths.
The irony doesn't escape me. Ty should be the one apologizing, not Emmett. I
appreciate his concern, though.
"You don't have to be sorry. It's not your fault."
He signs what looks like a long sentence, but he doesn't mouth the words, so
I have no idea what he is telling me.
"I'm sorry. I only know a little sign."
"You deserve better than Ty," he mouths.
"You wanna fill that bill?" I ask him sarcastically. His jaw drops and I
hurry to backpedal.
"I was just kidding. Good bye." I practically run into the house. What
possessed me to say that to him? Even if I had a shot before, I probably didn't
now. He must think I'm nuts. And why, oh why, the first time we spoke did it
have to be about Ty?
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After the poker game from hell, I am not in a good mood. It started out fine.
We went to Wilkie's house. The people there were impressed I drive a motorcycle.
Then we found out we needed to have money to play.
Toby didn't tell us that. I started getting suspicious. Wilkie put up
Daphne's and my share, but I was still uncomfortable. I wondered if Bay knew
about her brother's poker habit?
I quickly realized this a high stakes poker game. They were betting very
large each hand. Toby was ahead for a while, but then he started getting greedy.
He wanted us to watch Cheves and try to get all his money. By now, I'm fed up. I
tell Daphne I am not his trained monkey and head for the door. She doesn't
follow. Oh well, I'm not forcing her to leave. He is her brother after all.
Clearly, Toby has a gambling problem and I refuse to help fuel his habit.
The next morning, I go to see Daphne to see how the evening went after I
left. I am surprised to see Bay pull in the driveway so early. Seeing an
opportunity, I smile and wave at her. She returns the wave, but there is sadness
on her face. Realizing something is off, I walk over to her. As I get closer, I
realize she is on the verge of tears.
"Are you okay?" I mouth, putting my hand on her shoulder. It is the first
time we have ever touched and it feels like electricity goes up my arm. Can she
feel it too? I wonder what she would do if I pulled her into my arms? Probably
push me away.
She looks at me and speaks slowly so I catch everything she says. "No, not
really. I just found out Ty is leaving for the Army in 3 days."
That tool! He didn't tell her till the last possible second. My opinion of Ty
goes down a lot.
"He didn't tell you before now?" I mouth slowly.
"No. I just found out yesterday."
Distracted by this news, I sign "I'm sorry."
"I don't know what you said. I'm sorry." I realize I forgot to say it slowly
for her.
Laughing a little, I mouth again, "I said, "I'm sorry."
"You don't have to be sorry. It's not your fault." she says plainly.
The irony doesn't escape me. That tool Ty should be apologizing to her. But,
I feel like I owe it to her, to make up for his callousness toward her.
"You deserve to be with someone who treats you like a queen. Not a douchebag
like Ty," I sign so she doesn't know what I said.
"I'm sorry. I only know a little sign," she says apologetically.
"You deserve better than Ty," I mouth simply. What she said next threw me for
a loop.
"You wanna fill that bill?" she says with a semi-straight face.
My jaw dropped. Could she really mean that? Almost as soon as she said it,
though, her face turned bright red.
"I was just kidding. Good bye." She practically runs into the house. I
wondered if she was even remotely serious. She must be thinking about it to say
it. Why did the first time we talked have to be about Ty, though?
"Good bye, beautiful," I sign, even though she can't see me now. That one
question gave me hope.
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Disclaimer: Switched At Birth is owned by Lizzy Weiss and ABC Family. No
copyright infringement is meant. I am using the characters for entertainment
purposes only.
Disclaimer: There will be "M" rated themes in later chapters......
#-----------
Chapter 3- episode 5
Ty and I went to his house after the party. We made out for a while.
Eventually, clothes started coming off. I want this. I want to forget
everything. I want to forget the party and Daphne and all those idiot people at
the party. I want someone to want me.
"Do you have anything?" I ask Ty. His shirt is off and damn, but his chest
looks like a washboard. He is too sexy. My mouth waters looking at him.
He hesitates for a second. "Um, no. Do you?" he asks hopefully.
Sarcastically, I reply, "What, like secretly hidden in my cleavage or taped
to the bottom of my shoe? No!"
Then it really hit me. Ty is 19 and he has nothing? Is that even normal? Is
he still a virgin?
"Wait, how can you not have anything?"
"I don't know. I really didn't expect this to happen tonight." He answers
honestly.
Is he serious? I thought every guy carried a condom around in their wallet.
Isn't it like a "guy code" or something? I wondered fleetingly if Emmett carried
one. He probably was a virgin. The thought probably never even crossed his mind.
Or if it did, he without a doubt thought of Daphne or some other deaf girl.
Certainly not me.
Realizing nothing is happening between us tonight, I try to relieve the
pressure. "Okay, well, uh, next time we'll be more prepared."
Ty sighs but agrees with me.
Ty brings me home and kisses me goodbye. Out of the corner of my eye, I see
my father staring in the window of the truck.
"Dad!" Oh my god, I am so dead!
Of course, my parents flipped out. So, we came home at 3 am and they thought
I was at Simone's. Big deal. Mom and Dad kept talking over each other. Finally,
they tell me I can leave so they can decide my punishment. Little did I know
what was in store.
The next morning, Mom drops the bombshell. I'm not grounded. Ty has to come
to dinner. If he doesn't , we can't see each other anymore. World War III
here we come.
#-------
The morning after the party, I wake up on my stomach and it rather painful. I
try to remember what I was dreaming about that put me like this. Oh, yes. I
remember now. I was dreaming about Bay. She was under me and we had our hands
all over each other. Her bra was off and…..better stop those thoughts right
there. I really need to stop these fantasies. It's getting painful. And not in
the good way.
Awhile later, I find myself at the Kennish family home. I want to apologize
to Daphne, but secretly, I hope to see Bay. Dreams and fantasies are one thing.
The real deal is a dream come true. I walk into Toby's garage after spotting him
and Daphne inside.
"Hey, man! Awesome job last night," Toby says, but signs 'awesome' like I
taught him last night. Bumping fists, I tell him, "You too."
I apologize to Daphne, explaining I was in a bad mood last night. She said it
was forgotten and then asked me if I wanted to play poker with her and Toby.
Hoping to see Bay if I hung around long enough, I agreed. Little did I know what
I was in for.
#-------------------
After the dinner party from hell, I want to scream. First, Daphne and Toby
are no-shows. Then, Regina and Adriana bail. My parents were giving Ty the
Spanish Inquisition and then complained about his answers. To top it off, I
found out Ty is going into the Army on Thursday. 3 days! He's leaving in 3 days
and I'm just now hearing about it.
After dinner, we talk and he tells me he was planning on telling me. I don't
want to hear anything he has to say and tell him to leave. Texting me later that
night, he asks me to come over. He wants to see me.
After a talk with Regina that actually made me feel better, I decide to make
him a going away gift. I paint "Axe Girl" with an army cap on to surprise him.
The next morning I take it to his house. He tries to tell me he loves me, but I
stop him because it is too painful. We kiss and he tells me he has a condom now
if I wanted to do something. I tell him I just came to say goodbye.
When I get home, I am surprised to see Emmett in the driveway. He smiles and
waves when he sees me. I wave back, but can't return his smile. My heart is
breaking in two. He notices this and walks over to me.
"Are you okay?" he mouths. Concern is clearly written on his face. He puts
his hand on my shoulder. It is the first time we have ever touched. It feels
like electricity goes through me. Can he feel it too? I wonder what he would do
if I threw my arms around him and cried. Probably push me away.
I look at him and speak slowly so he catches everything I am saying. "No, not
really. I just found out Ty is leaving for the Army in 3 days."
"He didn't tell you before now?" he mouths again.
"No. I just found out yesterday."
He signs something I don't understand. "I don't know what you said. I'm
sorry."
He laughs a little. "I said "I'm sorry," he mouths.
The irony doesn't escape me. Ty should be the one apologizing, not Emmett. I
appreciate his concern, though.
"You don't have to be sorry. It's not your fault."
He signs what looks like a long sentence, but he doesn't mouth the words, so
I have no idea what he is telling me.
"I'm sorry. I only know a little sign."
"You deserve better than Ty," he mouths.
"You wanna fill that bill?" I ask him sarcastically. His jaw drops and I
hurry to backpedal.
"I was just kidding. Good bye." I practically run into the house. What
possessed me to say that to him? Even if I had a shot before, I probably didn't
now. He must think I'm nuts. And why, oh why, the first time we spoke did it
have to be about Ty?
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After the poker game from hell, I am not in a good mood. It started out fine.
We went to Wilkie's house. The people there were impressed I drive a motorcycle.
Then we found out we needed to have money to play.
Toby didn't tell us that. I started getting suspicious. Wilkie put up
Daphne's and my share, but I was still uncomfortable. I wondered if Bay knew
about her brother's poker habit?
I quickly realized this a high stakes poker game. They were betting very
large each hand. Toby was ahead for a while, but then he started getting greedy.
He wanted us to watch Cheves and try to get all his money. By now, I'm fed up. I
tell Daphne I am not his trained monkey and head for the door. She doesn't
follow. Oh well, I'm not forcing her to leave. He is her brother after all.
Clearly, Toby has a gambling problem and I refuse to help fuel his habit.
The next morning, I go to see Daphne to see how the evening went after I
left. I am surprised to see Bay pull in the driveway so early. Seeing an
opportunity, I smile and wave at her. She returns the wave, but there is sadness
on her face. Realizing something is off, I walk over to her. As I get closer, I
realize she is on the verge of tears.
"Are you okay?" I mouth, putting my hand on her shoulder. It is the first
time we have ever touched and it feels like electricity goes up my arm. Can she
feel it too? I wonder what she would do if I pulled her into my arms? Probably
push me away.
She looks at me and speaks slowly so I catch everything she says. "No, not
really. I just found out Ty is leaving for the Army in 3 days."
That tool! He didn't tell her till the last possible second. My opinion of Ty
goes down a lot.
"He didn't tell you before now?" I mouth slowly.
"No. I just found out yesterday."
Distracted by this news, I sign "I'm sorry."
"I don't know what you said. I'm sorry." I realize I forgot to say it slowly
for her.
Laughing a little, I mouth again, "I said, "I'm sorry."
"You don't have to be sorry. It's not your fault." she says plainly.
The irony doesn't escape me. That tool Ty should be apologizing to her. But,
I feel like I owe it to her, to make up for his callousness toward her.
"You deserve to be with someone who treats you like a queen. Not a douchebag
like Ty," I sign so she doesn't know what I said.
"I'm sorry. I only know a little sign," she says apologetically.
"You deserve better than Ty," I mouth simply. What she said next threw me for
a loop.
"You wanna fill that bill?" she says with a semi-straight face.
My jaw dropped. Could she really mean that? Almost as soon as she said it,
though, her face turned bright red.
"I was just kidding. Good bye." She practically runs into the house. I
wondered if she was even remotely serious. She must be thinking about it to say
it. Why did the first time we talked have to be about Ty, though?
"Good bye, beautiful," I sign, even though she can't see me now. That one
question gave me hope.
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